Accepting my illnesses.

A few days ago, I finally spoke aloud to a medical officer that “I may have bipolar disorder.” He was prescribing me medication and asked me to choose between 2. He recommended one, and when I asked about the side effects (you always need to ask), he’d said, “Oh, nothing much, unless you have a psychological…

Relapsed.

I’ve avoided taking a look in the mirror recently because I’ve struggled to recognise the person looking back. I’ve been going steadily downhill and struggling greatly with the ptsd and depressive episodes, with a thorough relapse over the past week or so, and started feeling disassociated with myself. I have decided to get professional help…

Srebrenica – We’ll never forget.

We all know about Auschwitz, about the massacre of Jews, gypsies, homosexuals, and others in Germany, but not really Srebrenica. Today, 11 July, is Srebrenica Memorial Day. The Srebrenica Massacre was the systematic genocide of more than 8000 Bosniaks in Srebrenica during the Bosnian War that started on 11 July 1995. It was an ethnic…

I am not my illness.

I am not my illness. This illness is not me. Last Saturday, I’d gone back for #rainbowsforbatam with my alumni, which meant this beautiful people knew me before this. (My last trip was before the trauma happened.) I was not okay, and the constant concerned “Are you okay?”-s and “It’s okay, you rest, we’ll take over.”-s from…

Happy World Book Day!

As a child, I would escape through books. Like what Oprah aptly said: Books were my pass to personal freedom. It took me to worlds beyond my own, the small apartment in Woodlands, beyond Singapore, beyond my kampung in Melaka even. It allowed me to live many lives and die many deaths; to feel less…

Forever Bag//Generation 414 – Open for pre-orders!

I’m finally doing this! *rocks out a happy dance* Last December, when Christine told me about the Ethical Christmas Night Market that Generation 414 was going to be a part of while I was in Melbourne, I knew that was where I needed to be! Generation 414 is a social enterprise offering organic, ethical and fair trade items handmade…

Broken yet Whole

“Life will send tragedy hurtling into your orbit. It always does. And how you react to that tragedy, how you learn and shift and grow and the resilience you exhibit — all of these things are indicators of who you are. Your tragedy does not have to be your calling card. You can define yourself…